September 11th, 2021

I don’t want you to depend on me. I don’t want you to be upset, I don’t want you to hurt, but please stop depending on me to feel better. I tried so hard for years and I was never appreciated or reciprocated for any of it, but you still want me to comfort you. I know you would do the same for me now, but after all those years of pushing me away I don’t really want to now. I’m tired, I just want to rest. 

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